loud and out of key.

its always is such a discomforting thing, to not be able to see the big picture, to have to live through the struggles without the benefit of hindsight. its discouraging and it sort of makes you wonder why you even bothered trying; because you get what you want but not what you need. everything that we do is all work towards trying to attain some kind of  happiness, and people are so willing to put them through pains of all sorts in hope that there is light at the end of the tunnel. but what if that rumoured light at the end of the tunnel doesn’t exist? what if its all a futile race that only grants momentary and temporary gratification; and in the long-run, only prolongs the torture of our existence – the perenial attempts to gain some permenance of that gratification in a world that is ever changing. would it be better to have never known how it felt to be that high? and if and when we come to a point of permenant redundancy in life, who can we blame for those lies? or did they know better themselves? because we’re all lost and disconnected from why we are here, and misery sure loves company.

there are moments when, when I know it ends; the world revolves around us, and we’re keeping it, keep it all going – this delicate balance, vulnerable, all knowing. sing like you think no one’s listening, you would kill for this – just a little bit, just a little bit, you would kill for this.

yeah i would.

existentialism on prom night – straylight run, and its not even prom night, though the sentiments are almost exact.

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you know, sometimes people feel as though that the comforts of the world have bribed them of their indivual freedoms – the inability to give up the good life forces them to keep at their books, to stick to the rules, to clock in regular hours at the office; and sometimes, people will do the craziest things just to reassure themselves that they are still in control of their lives and not slaves to the desire of normacy of human life. i feel like i’m going to do something incredibly crazy soon.

whatever happened to happily ever after.

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~ by moz on October 11, 2006.